Contextual? NO!

Ive just written a huge blog post and deleted it.
I also spelt my name wrong at the end of it...today has been one of those days.

So for the second time....

This morning i was talking to someone, someone that i dont know very well but always find myself one of twice a year chatting to about this and that. He said that i need to make sure that i dont let uni get my down, always having to have a reason as to why im doing something. Hes right. Funny how everyone is always telling me this, the people in my life day and to day but it has taken someone thats not around to just tell me that one last time and its given me a kick up the bum!

I dont always have a reason as to why im taking a photograph of something 90% of the time its just because i can or because i want to but being student means always having to have a critical and contextual reason. Two words that i want to never hear again once i leave univeristy.

Being at univeristy has made me a better yet worse photographer. My technical skills which need so much more work are better than when i stepped into the studio for the first time but the creative side that i always used to pride myself on has slowly over the 3 years that i have been here faded away. This isnt because ive become less of a photographer, its through the stress of univserity life. Having to sit and write 4000 words about photography when i could be out and about spending that time shooting what ever i like!? I knew i would have to write when i was here, dont get me wrong, i didnt think it was all going to be pretty pictures and BOOM! and quick degree in my pocket. but my dissertation it larger than my friend that does english literature. It doesnt make sense.

I had written so much more in this blog when i wrote my first attempt...and then i deleted it and couldnt get it back...and i have a tutor meeting in 15mins where my ideas still get stamped on!...so tomorrow im going to take my final year images...im going to go into the studio with a goodnights sleep under my belt and a stress free head. Well, i say that now but we will see...

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